Changing my mind

You know what, Kathleen was telling me the other day, or last month, that I've changed alot since coming to Planetshakers. Haha. I mean, I'm now less diplomatic in my answers.

Romans 12:2
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

I mean, I guess I haven't been in church or among Christians for quite a while before that, since FBC, I did go to RLC once in a while, but I never really stuck on, my mind was everywhere when I was in Metropolitan still, I knew I was leaving for Melbourne, just never quite sure when.

So being away from Christians you do tend to think more carnally. Carnal as in what the world thinks, not in align to God's will. Like for me, during last year and the year before, I was too hooked up on Otherground Forum and Nationstates forum, which is mostly just people bickering on about politics or nonsense junk that didn't quite go anywhere. I mean politics, ideology, religion, and current issues fascinate me once in a while. It's good to learn somewhat, but most of the time it's nonsensical bickering of overzealous teenagers or college kids with too much time on their hands.

Even if you win a debate, there's some other idiot who keeps on coming back and asking you the same question. Where you win 1, and another 3 comes up. Haha. Neverending like the hydra!! But the good thing is that it opened up my eyes to the many different people out there, and how people really think differently coming from all over the world.

Like for me, some I still cannot stand are communists, socialists, and the worst anarchists, all talking about their grand ideas for world unification and world peace if everyone was equal, if only the ogliarchs like Bush is taken down bla bla. And then there's atheists who never gives up talking about who irritating bible bashers are, when their rants are probably just as irritating ranting about it. Heheh, talk about calling the kettle black, but with Fred Phelps, the modern day Pharisee getting all the news headlines, no wonder they think Christians are all fire and brimstone, and they believe God is out to get them. And I really hated the time when there were those arguements (which is still on going today) about creationism and evolution. Meh.. it never ends!!! Hence I haven't been back there since.

But yeah, going back to my first statement, where Kathleen was telling me how i'm different now. Yep it's true. I think i've taken a more 'let go and let God' stance. I've been really blessed all my life and I've never really counted my blessings. I've been chasing after things that come to no fruition, my focus on life was chasing after carnal intellect. I used to be pretty up to date with the market trends, the social and economic issues in Malaysia, and was trying to follow Australia as well, but I've tone down.But like I said before, carnal intellect. Now I'm trying to get back to Jesus. I'm not saying that carnal intellect is useless, but rather it's no guarantee to succeed.

1 Corinthians 1:25
Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men; and the weakness of God is stronger than men.

So, to me, I'm trying to get back to the source of wisdom. Get back into grace, the undeserved and unmerited favor of God in my life. It's as if now my focus on life, is no more on the 'success' but on Jesus. But like my brother says, just don't get Crazymatic on the way. Hahaha, but 1st Timothy 1:7, He gives me a Sound Mind. :) I claim that.

Man, I feel like I can suddenly burst out into talking alot of new things. But I think I better stop here, before I get out of topic. So yeah, I had to repent, which means "Change my mind", change my idea's, think differently recently, since going to Planetshakers.