Thursday, September 9, 2010

Friendly Friend of the Common Man

This had been on my mind for a while, is it a curse,burden or a blessing?

I don't know why, in my life, it seems to be quite apparent and true to some extent. That I have a tendency to associate better with the common man, the person on the street, the nobody. Rather than the elite, the prominent, the people who are viewed famous or important. This is also evident just in the observations of my friends, characters I hang out with in all settings, from church, work and just outside.

For some reason I'm not that comfortable with people who are comfortable. It maybe some issue in my life I need to be deal with, although mentally I know how to act proper. But my heart does bleed for the unnoticed, the unloved. They are seemingly more real than others.

Reminding myself of what Ian McManus once experienced. He was invited to a conference, where some of the top managers and leaders were asked to speak. Most people attended the meeting so that they can hear the CEO of Ford (or was it GM?) speak at that meeting. Ian was also invited to speak, and it was on building successful businesses through good leadership. Ian felt a bit out of place especially being a Pastor, but he decided to do it anyway.

The CEO spoke about three types of people.. A-type, B-type and C-type. A-type's are the brilliant, the sort of people your company needs to move it forward and will bring big business. B-Type are people who your company needs, their not brilliant, but we all need people to sweep the floors and do the toilets. C-Type are people you need to get rid off because they will pull the company down. Then he talked about the qualities of each and how to look out for them.

Ian McManus halfway during the CEO's speech felt like changing his speech, but really felt it was the Holy Spirit asking him to say what he had written down previously before. He stood up and talked about the underdog, and raising up the champion in all of us. Which is contrary to the CEO's speech.

He talked about the A-type. Yes, the people who has always been great in life, the talents. But the thing is that a great leader is one who gathers the C-type people, teach them, disciple them, and believe in them. He gave an illustration of a basketball game, where he trained up a bunch of kids who nobody thought they could do any better,the kids whom were always picked last. But he spent time with them, training them, and instilling belief again in them, and one day they finally took up the challenge and went against an A-Team. They still lost, but the margin was by 3 points instead of a expected disastrous defeat.

--------

We love the underdog spirit. The person who everybody gave up on, the person who had no future, the person whom everybody despised and laughed at. And by the determination of the will, or by encouragement of a friend who stepped beyond himself, caused the underdog to rise up and proved the world wrong.

We all love it, however how rarely when we are put in the position or someone we know is in that position, do we rise up to the challenge and be it?

One great person I love is Jesus. Jesus took for himself a rag-tag 12, from fishermen of Galilee to the thuggish tax-collector. Jesus's dirty dozen. Indeed one fell, but the other eleven went on to live and die for a cause way beyond themselves and till this day, the same fire that burned in their hearts burn in ours today.

----

There was a man, who kill people. He was a murderer. A zealot, he believed in what he was doing was a righteous act. A man most feared and despised. His name was Saul. But when God touched him, he came to know Jesus as his Lord and saviour.

But even when he joined the communion of the saints, most didn't want to associate with him, how can you sit on the same table as the man who murdered your husband/wife/daughter/son?

And yet, Barnabas took up the role. To believe in Him. Barnabas was not his real name, but he was called Barnabas, which meant "Son of Encouragement". His whole personality radiated with encouragement and belief in people whom people has given up on.

And Saul went on to became Paul and wrote 2/3rds of the new testament. The mighty men of God whom did great and marvelous acts. The one who cried "But I will rejoice even if I lose my life, pouring it out like a liquid offering to God" (Phillipians 2:17), a man who lived and died for a cause.

----

The world like the prominents, the talented, the gifted. But the Lord doesn't look at the outward appearance but at the heart.

I need to look at even my own life with God's eyes. Especially when I put my life in perspective of many of my friends. For me to be doing security, when some of my friends are investment bankers, engineers and people of high positions. I feel like a fool at times. The years seem to go by, I feel like I've lived life harder than most, but still have not achieve more than most. Why is it that I have to climb 10 tree's to get a coconut when they only need to climb one? Why are the opportunities shut for me, but opened for them freely. It's as if, there is injustice in my world according to my eyes. But not according to God's eyes.

Can I believe that God is speaking to me? Encouraging me? Saying "I have not forgotten you John". That I am an underdog as well? We all love the dream of high-flyers, graduating with honours, coming out in big-named firms, big-checks and rising above and beyond their peers. We want to be them. But I am not them.

Like an eagle amongst the chickens, the Lord is saying to take a flight with Him, being different, going different paths, finding my own. Not living the life others live or going the way they go. But to find Him and His purpose in my life.

I feel at many times I am at crossroads, I feel like going back home, grass seems greener on the other side, people tell me I'm a fool, I don't know. Life seems so uncertain. But, I have only one certainty in life. Is that Holy Spirit.. you are with me. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Friday, April 23, 2010

The Foolishness of the Gospel preached

1 Corinthians 1:18-23.

18 The message of the cross is foolish to those who are headed for destruction! But we who are being saved know it is the very power of God. 19 As the Scriptures say,
“I will destroy the wisdom of the wise
and discard the intelligence of the intelligent.”[a]

20 So where does this leave the philosophers, the scholars, and the world’s brilliant debaters? God has made the wisdom of this world look foolish. 21 Since God in his wisdom saw to it that the world would never know him through human wisdom, he has used our foolish preaching to save those who believe. 22 It is foolish to the Jews, who ask for signs from heaven. And it is foolish to the Greeks, who seek human wisdom. 23 So when we preach that Christ was crucified, the Jews are offended and the Gentiles say it’s all nonsense.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Have you ever wondered about the Gospel message? Just think about it, from a critical, humanistic and rational point of view. Break it down into a single sentence, and say it.

"I believe in a man, born 2000 years ago claiming to be the Son of God, who walked on this earth, died on a cross, shed his blood, and rose again 3 days later and those who believe in Him as your Lord and Saviour will have everlasting life”.

Now, how logical does that sound? The truth is, we believe in a foolish gospel. Paul even says it, foolishness to the greeks, who seek human wisdom. Gentile’s says “It’s all nonsense”. From even my own rational mind, I would think it’s also nonsense.

But the bible says, verse 24 – Christ is the power of God, and the Wisdom of God. This foolish plan of God is Wiser than the wisest of human plans, and God’s weakness is stronger than the greatest of human strengths.

The last couple of weeks/months i've been talking to a colleague of mine who's an atheist. I personally have no problems about people having their own beliefs, but if there is a bible-pusher, theres also an atheist pusher. And he's one of those, I usually spend most of my time arguing with him, and the problem is that deep down he has no answers, and therefore the easiest answer is to blame God.

He may complain about the moral breakdown of the church, or even the divinity of Christ, but one thing that I had have him cornered is the person of Jesus. But regardless of how much he argues with me, I try and keep it simple, because at the end of the day, I've come to realization that it is the power of the Holy Spirit that convicts people to the power and revelation of Jesus Christ.

But nevertheless, during those times, it had got me thinking about the "Foolishness of the Gospel" in that Paul talks about.

I went back and thought about it, and asked God, how come are Gospel is so hidden? It makes no sense at the same time it does as well. And I felt God answered me, do you know what else is foolish aside from the Gospel? Love.

I wish I can give you a definition of love, but I can’t. Love is more than just an emotion, it’s also a choice and sacrifice. It’s something that we need to survive and cannot live without, but at the same time we understand it so little. We know we need it, and yet we don’t understand it.

The problem about guys is that we think more with our heads than our hearts. The thing about us guys, is that we always want to understand it before we can identify it and allow it to change us. And thats why I believe we are slower at times. But God has created us that way for a reason.

I think that’s also partly why we guys tend to disengage with our emotions because we don’t understand and eventually it affects our capacity to love. We live in a society where people are getting smarter but the divorce rates are getting higher. We’ve even learned not to fool others but also ourselves. Like how I was hearing Pastor TD Jakes saying about a women he had to council “Oh Pastor, I don’t understand, last week, he gave me flowers for our anniversary and made love but this week he wants a divorce”. We can have sex and not be connected, we can hang out with friends our entire lives and never truly know them.

Men can do the most cruel evil things, we can dehumanize people, turn apathetic to the cries of humanity. All in the name of logic. Think about Eugenics, the Spartans used to kill their weak and dying babies to create a society of warriors. The Nazi's did the same thing so that they're species can be strengthen. Even Evolutionism teaches about survival of the species. Love takes a back seat and becomes a chemical balance in our brains.

And yet, love is not logical. There is an element of faith in the impossible. Parents who would do anything to help their disfigured child, giving him the best quality of life possible. People willing to take care of the elderly, despite them not having really much hope or aspiration to achieve much more in life. We treasure things that isn't logical but we know its right, because we care.

Strangely today I was also reading an article on LiveScience on “Why women stay in abusive relationships”. How can women keep on staying on, the highest reasons is “Dependency and affection”. Somehow women can see some inch of light in his character. “Oh but he loves me, he’s so caring when he’s not angry or drunk”. How can you keep on in a relationship when he beats you?

This statement… “I believe I can change Him, or I believe He can change”. You know what that statement speaks off? Love and hope… faith. But faith without Jesus is empty, for it lacks the life-changing power of Jesus.

So love, it's foolishness...

----------------------------------

Then it Hit me... Yes.. Gobsmack in the face.

This is what the Bible says Love is:

1 John 4:10 – And THIS IS REAL LOVE – not that we love God, but that He loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.

Do you know why the gospel seemingly irrational? Seemingly illogical? A foolish Gospel?

The Gospel is foolish. Why? Because GOD BECAME A FOOL FOR ME.

God took on the mortal coil of man, powerless and weak, and he took the place of the lost soul wandering around in the dark doing as his hearts desires headed for destruction, THE TRUE FOOL, Me.

How foolish is it to die for someone, knowing that they might never understand, they might never feel, they might never know how much you love them, and reject it, never to reciprocate to that love that He shed his very life for.

The Foolishness of the Gospel. Jesus became a fool for me. Because He willingly became a fool for Love.

"I believe in a man, born 2000 years ago claiming to be the Son of God, who walked on this earth, died on a cross, shed his blood, and rose again 3 days later and those who believe in Him as your Lord and Saviour will have everlasting life”.

Yes, He died for me. But the wisdom of God is higher than the wisdom of man.

JESUS ROSE AGAIN! Yes I Love Him, his name is Jesus, and I LOVE HIM!

1 John 15:12-13

12 This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you. 13 There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.

He became a fool for me, can I become a fool for Him?

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2010 and beyond

I've been spending a little time just reflecting on 2009. To be honest, was feeling depressed about it at first, but what really got me up again was reading Keith Craft's blog. - http://keithcraftblog.com/

At most times, our perspective is really myopic. For some strange reason, we are more likely to remember the pains than the joys. 2009 has been an intriguing year.

It's been a year of more pain than I can ever remember, pain, loneliness and just sadness and darkness. It could be starting work really early, and ending the day really late. It felt like a long dark year, with a very dark and cold winter waking up at 4 or 5am's below 0 degrees, probably it felt elongated as I had a very bad second half of 2008 struggling with poverty, then 2009 It got better however there were very strong highlights of pain rather than joy, from fighting depression and the stone in my bladder.

It had been a year of disappointment followed by just times of lack of vision, I felt at times I was just going through the motions, living each day for the next paycheck, and not too sure what I even did with my money in all honesty.

Encouragement was hard to come by, and just felt like I wanted to sleep it all away.

There is a good tiredness, tiredness from a effecient and productive day. Then there is the fatigue from the lack of vision, where the reality of life is the tragedy that you have come to nothing, you just want it all to go away.

Being angry doesn't help, and struggle all you want, the waves are just too high, the current too strong, I felt like I was drowning.

Nevertheless, God wasn't far, it had been a season of being set apart. The life lessons on 2009 had been tremendous, especially a challenge to the things I once held to the core. Who I really am. I despise being a public success but a private failure. That I say "yeah I'm doing well", but in truth I'm hurting on the inside. The imploding feeling, that I just want to be away from anyone that when I do come to the end of self, I won't hurt you.

I am sick of the pretending and the masks.

I'm not saying you should wear a depressed look everywhere you go, but there is a power found in Jesus. Found in the secret place of spending time with the lover of my soul. The honest cry of the heart that I need You, as I cannot keep on living life as the way it is. Life is meant to be taken by faith, it is impossible to rationalize the plans and purpose, and just be faithful with what we have in our hands. The peace of God which lies inside, in the moments of just worship and pausing to hear the sweet small voice.

I had a vision, despite all the darkness that surrounded my heart, deep inside, I felt my heart was covered in darkness, just the anxiety and fear, but deeper still, was a throne, and Jesus sat on it, and He wasn't moved. That though the world, the devil, whoever try and sift me, God is there for me always, though I may be dangling before the abyss, He has me in his arms, He will protect my heart, protect my mind, and He is there for me always.

In dark nights of the soul, is where God can tear down the masks, and unveil the vulnerabilities, the holes. Yes, there is the warm love, the comforter Holy Spirit who passes by in the night and in the quiet time of the mornings. But I've learned that it is not good for man to live alone. Towards the end of 2009 it is also a year God has asked me to reinvest again into relationships.

Blessed are you who has friends who still believes in you even once you stop believing in yourself. Someone where you can be open and just be real. It doesn't mean you have to all the time moan about your problems, but someone who really cares about you, a friend that see's through your masks and won't stop being a pain till he gets down to the truth of the matter ,someone willing to not just be there by your side, but someone who can slap you silly and drag you by the toes out of the mire of self-pity and self-loathing, then set you again high with the encouragement, promises and prophecies.

It's not found only in one person, but I want a collective of small group of friends, who has the same pursuit and passions in life, living life together in Christ. Men and Women of God seeking Real Fellowship. In all honesty, I am still on that journey of finding them. But these kinds of fellowship doesn't start overnight, but through a life-long process, and I have to start somewhere.

Somehow 2009 was a year I opened up myself to pain. Not only mine, but of others. Somehow bumping into many many lonely and hurting people. At the end of this year, I feel the incredible necessity of having the Lord Jesus being Lord in my life. It is only in us being blessed are we able to bless others.

The world is hurting and dying, and we need the Kingdom Power of King Jesus manifesting here on earth through our lives, God can choose to use his angels, but He has given us His Children the specific job, and He has also imparted to us the Holy Spirit, the same power that raised Christ from the dead resides in you and me.

----

2009. I felt although it was a regretfully painful year. It was a year of tremendous growth, especially in my conduct and work ethic. More so, my integrity and character.

At the last church service, I was regretting the choices in this year. But I felt God was putting his hand on my shoulder and saying, that this year was the sweat and tears of a foundation of bigger things to be built on. The Foundation of a building has to be the strongest part of the building, and at times it involves being piled, speared by a giant metal rod for the sake of ensuring a deep foundation, to dig in deep to clean out the issues of the heart yet to be settled, to dig out the stones embedded into the heart.

2010, A lot of Pastors are proclaiming this is a year of double return and great favour. Even those that don't prophecy about these things are shouting from the rooftops and going out on a limb about this. I know our eyes are not meant to be on the year, but God does work in seasons.

I don't want to miss it. Not again. Lord, help me, let me be there to catch the wave, I want to be propelled into the destiny in which you have set before me, and I have to be ready. With You I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It's going to be an interesting year.

Get ready get ready get ready get ready.